Life = Two Pieces of Paper

I haven't written on my blog lately, because I told myself that I wasn't going to make my next post about Lauren.... AND guess what this post is about Lauren (Sorry).

Yesterday, I had to make a trip to Vital Records to get a copy of Lauren's birth certificate and her death certificate.  I didn't realize how emotional this trip would be for me until I sat in my car holding two pieces of paper that represented the life of my child.  If you ever have to hold someones death certificate, I suggest that you don't read it, trust me, just don't read it.

After my mini-pity party, I thought about my own life and what I can do to make my life matter more than two pieces of paper.   How can I turn my pain into passion and leave a lasting legacy and how can I turn my sorrow into success.

Recently, I have watched TV shows about the lives of successful people or people who were once successful.  I wondered what was the difference between myself and the famous successful people.  Most of their journeys started off similar to mine or dramatically worse.  How did they turn their lemons into lemonade?  Last night I watched a show about a celebrity named Nicki Minaj (I had never heard of her before this show and I don't recommend watching the show), but she did help me connect the dots.  Truly successful people don't give up, they believe in themselves and they honestly believe that things will work out in their favor.  They have a goal and they don't lose sight of it no matter what gets in their way.

I know that I can't give up, but I don't remember what my goal is anymore.  But once I remember, WATCH OUT WORLD, I'm not going to let it go and I'm going to make the best of my time here in between the two pieces of paper.

Daring to Dream (and trying to figure out what the Dream Is)
Von